Thursday, February 3, 2011

Abundance And A Clear Cel Signal

Today I was feeling overwhelmed. It seemed that everything that I was working on needed my attention... right now. How was I going to get it all done? What exactly was it that I needed to do in the first place and in what order, who and what takes priority? Where's my to do list? I have 50 new emails. I wanted to practice yoga with Jonathan, but I still needed to make that phone call to London before end of business there. If I drove to home from the studio at 9:30 am I wouldn't have a clear signal without the call getting dropped during the 15 minute ride home. And I still needed to buy groceries. I cant make a business call with the ding of the grocery check out in the background! Why is Whole Foods so expensive anyway?
I cant believe this is happening! I need an assistant. Oh I cant afford one right now. I'm freelance.
And then I took that long deep releasing breath, the one that reminds you that even though all of the air has been expelled- you are still full- you are supported-everything in this present moment is okay, in fact, its perfect. Why am I about to manifest disaster ?
And then in the next moment I realized... I asked for this. I have gotten exactly what I asked for: Abundance of projects, with people I like and projects I care about, to be able to practice yoga everyday, to eat well, to spend time with friends and work from home in the mountains where reception is dodgy.Yes it was exactly as it should be- abundant, beautiful, perfect and once I became a witness to it all, I saw the perfect path to getting it all done with grace, laughter and a few stops up the mountain to keep my cel signal.
Jai Ganesha!

2 comments:

  1. thank goodness I'm not crazy...this IS what freelance feels like! It's not just me!!! usually when I am able to find that calming breath to stave off the madness...those are the moments I feel your presence with me the most. you are my Oprah!

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  2. dear tracee i love your blog posts. i feel like we're living parallel lives. thanks for sharing from the heart. truly resonates <3

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